LIVING AN ANSWERED PRAYER

 Hello. School is almost over. We have a bit of one week left. And I dunno but over these past couple of days I've felt stress-free. I have no anxiety anymore. I'm not stressing about final performance tasks or exams or anything. It's really freeing and last wednesday I found myself looking in the mirror and loving the person staring back. And I saw myself as beautiful for the first time in a while. I love it. I'm so happy. I have such unexplainable joy and it's a nice change. 

CHRIS TOMLIN!!!

 On Saturday (June 10) I went to my first ever concert! It featured Christian rap artists like Flame and Lecrae (Luke had introduced me to Lecrae a while ago so his music was somewhat familiar) AND CHRIS TOMLIN!!! As a person who grew up listening to Chris Tomlin on CDs at home and during car rides to church that was AWESOME. He was so joyful and happy when he was performing it was really amazing. I'm so glad my first ever concert was a worship-filled-praising-God one. I'll take Chris Tomlin over a Taylor Swift concert. ;) Best weekend ever!!! #VICTORIOUS

He sang all these songs:
Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)
Holy Forever
Good Good Father
Our God
Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies)
At The Cross (Love Ran Red)
We Bow Down
YAHWEH (No One)
How Great Is Our God  

Morgan Freeman and Martin Freeman

Last night I asked my sister if Morgan Freeman and Martin Freeman were related (because they had the same last name) and she looked at me in utter confusion so I (thinking she didn't understand) repeated the question and she said "Morgan Freeman is black. Martin Freeman is british. Morgan Freeman voices VITRUVIUS in the lego movie?" I am honestly so glad she set me straight otherwise I would have asked someone at school

OPEN THE BOX

"So many people are shut up tight inside themselves like boxes, yet they would open up, unfolding quite wonderfully, if only you were interested in them." -Sylvia Plath

ALL THE BRIGHT PLACES by Jennifer Niven

 “The great thing about this life of ours is that you can be someone different to everybody.”

“The problem with people is they forget that most of the time it's the small things that count.”

“It's my experience that people are a lot more sympathetic if they can see you hurting, and for the millionth time in my life I wish for measles or smallpox or some other easily understood disease just to make it easier on me and also on them.”

“I do my best thinking at night when everyone else is sleeping. No interruptions. No noise. I like the feeling of being awake when no one else is.”

“We are all alone, trapped in these bodies and our own minds, and whatever company we have in this life is only fleeting and superficial.”

“Sorry wastes time. You have to live your life like you'll never be sorry. It's easier just to do the right thing from the start so there's nothing to apologize for.”

“Because it's not a lie if it's how you feel.”

"But I’m not a compilation of symptoms. Not a casualty of shitty parents and an even shittier chemical makeup. Not a problem. Not a diagnosis. Not an illness. Not something to be rescued. I’m a person.”

“What a terrible feeling to love someone and not be able to help them.”

“Do whatever it takes to remind myself that I’m still here and have a say.”

“You don’t know how it is. It’s like I’ve got this angry little person inside me, and I can feel him trying to get out. He’s running out of room because he’s growing bigger and bigger, and so he starts rising up, into my lungs, chest, throat, and I just push him right back down. I don’t want him to come out. I can’t let him out.”

“You are all the colours in one, at full brightness.”

-Jennifer Niven, All The Bright Places